chocolate croissants consume my thoughts

Most weeks J and I share a breakfast treat one day. In the summer it's Saturdays during the farmer's market, but in the winter it fluctuates. Usually once a week though we share a chocolate croissant. Our favorite is from Le Chatelaine but we often have to settle for Whole Foods' version. I woke up this morning thinking about these and I almost sent D out for some. But then I remembered . . . egg whites. I'm supposed to have egg whites. Gag.

I seem to have fooled a number of people into thinking I have amazing will power. Ha! I have very little when it comes to food at least. I miss my croissant. I have pondered it. I eventually came to the conclusion that I deserve one. I mean, it's part of my constitutional right as it's clearly pivotal to my pursuit of happiness.

I made the stupid egg whites but they were nearly inedible. I finally managed to eat them, without gagging, by putting them on an English muffin with some soy sausage. The latter are both listed in the meal plan example I have so I'm not cheating. It was more a comedy of errors at the stove that made the eggs vile. I don't hate eggs, but I don't love them and I'm particular about how they are prepared. Overall a chocolate croissant is far easier and more delicious.

If you read the last entry, you know I'm starting P90x. We did our fit test last night and decided to start on the meal plan this morning. The first month's meal suggestions are very Atkins-like. That will be hard for me. I feel like I eat pretty well, however I do love carbs. I think I can do it with a few adjustments (i.e. chocolate snacks & chai tea). I need to be spoiled, even if I'm the only one doing the spoiling. I think I'll do better on mornings D is not around. I may have outdone him on the fit test, but he has a lot more will power with food. Apparently things don't have to taste good for him to eat them - and consistency isn't an issue either. Ugh.

I got online this morning to check out the P90x community I was told existed. You know, I understand selling P90x drinks, bars, supplements, etc and claiming they are they ones to have. But to have your website structured to charge for community support seems just wrong. It's an additional $3 a week for the blog, videos, recipes and more. Seriously?!? That's annoying, even for an infomercial product.

I was also annoyed to see that the free calculator/wizard said I should be eating 1300 calories on this plan. WHAT?!?! Ah yeah, I could eat that many calories while sitting on the cough in front of soaps and lose weight. I'm pretty certain I was well above that calorie count when I was doing Weight Watchers . . . where I successfully lost over 25 pounds, meeting my goal and becoming a lifetime member. But I'm doing this for more than weight loss. I want to be in shape and have muscle definition. I had already been thinking about adding lifting back into my repertoire because my arms are getting flabby. So this makes sense to me, for now. I should also note that I'll be in the Virgin Islands in the next few months and I do recall my previous photos on the beach. I would have to destroy any photographic evidence if I went in my current "condition."

But back to positivity, my fit test went well last night. I only failed one part - the jumping jacks. My calves cramped up so I did a modified version. Considering how hardcore this program is going to be, I labeled that as a failure. In Tony Horton speak 'I'm currently struggling with' jumping jacks. On the bright side, I did nearly 3x the number of pull-ups as the minimum, and I blew past the minimum for curls as well as in & outs. I feel ready. I think it's good to start the program feeling good and positive. I'm glad the fit test has gotten me into that state-of-mind.

After the fit test we watched a couple of the DVDs to see what was coming. I like to have all the information and know what's coming. Good thing too, because we figured out we need to re-work our pull-up bar. D is going to the hardware store today. We also learned we need more weights - well weight options.

We'll see how I feel tomorrow. Tonight is Chest & Back as well as Ab Ripper. Yikes. I haven't watched the Ab one yet so I'll likely do that this afternoon. I NEED to know ahead of time what horror awaits. Stay tuned. I suspect the next entry may be comically different than this.